I am sick and miserable.. why the fuck am i sick? I have been trying to get better but natural healing is so slow and deliberate so I am just gonna go to the doctor. This fever and my body aching leaves me with not much to do so I have a lot on my mind. I drowned myself in the Inheritance Series for about a week. Its a pretty amazing series and I am glad I read it. I haven’t read in a long time and I think i started with a great book. I tried to read 50 shades of gray but it really holds no interest for me. My summer has been pretty great except for the fact that I am not earning any of the money I planned lol. maybe when i go back to work I will make a better attempt.Also I really don’t like talking about bunny in a personal way. I realized that some of my friends are curious and are all like how are things going? and to be honest I don’t know how to respond. A good acquaintance of mine kind of reassured me of what I was already thinking. If everything is there then isn’t it just ourselves being to scared to actually say what should be said? It sounds like what we have and if it was that simple then i would of said it but the problem is the wall. The wall is a built foundation made of every single thing that has ever been wrong in our whole ordeal. The wall prevents me from being to positive or throwing myself into some type or crazy fascination.I have to say that things are better and worse.All at the same time.